Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Day 08: A song that you know all the words to

You have no idea how tempted i was to put Barbra Streisand by Duck sauce as the song for this week. Instead, I'm gonna put a song by one of my favourite bands that might not otherwise get on here.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Day 07: A song that reminds you of a certain event

How'd you like to hear the story of my first kiss? It's not very exciting, but it's filled with the kind of charm that only teenage awkwardness can produce. And it all started with the following song. I was at Lav, the party i mentioned in my last post, and Wolfmother came on. Now, being the awesomely cheesy and hopeless goofball that i was back then, I started rippin some major air guitar. Not, rollin on the floor doin full world championship shit, just some power strums and head bangs. Because let's face it, the intro to this song is killer for air guitaring.

Suddenly, out of the blue, some chick taps em on the shoulder and asks "Can you play that song?" So I threw her a goof ball grin and went "I fuckin wish." And I'm not quite sure how it happened, but we ended up dancing together.

Now she was a pretty lass. Which is saying a lot, because Jonno K once hooked up with 8 girls in one night at that party, so talent was pretty lacking. So I was pretty fuckin chuffed at just dancing with a pretty girl. Fuck it, I'll be honest, i was pretty fuckin chuffed dancing with a girl. The fact that she was pretty practically blew my head in. So when her friend suggested that we hook up, my naive little mind melted, and i somehow ended up turning her down. I'd like to say that i had some grand ideal of what my first kiss should have been like, but i was just fuckin scared of being a fuck up. Which ironically made me a fuck up. I'm like that. Way too often.

So anyway, I'd just turned down the advances of a pretty girl (although i didn't realise it at first), and for some reason she kept dancing with me. And then at one point, i remember thinking "She smells really nice" and completely without thinking, i did the single most intelligent thing I'd ever done in my life up to that point. I gave her a quick kiss on the cheek. Which she followed up with a full on make out session. We split up after a time, just before the end of the night, and after it ended, i managed to get her number.

What followed was a complicated and confusing pair of relationships that had a pretty massive impact on my life over the next 2 years. I'm not sure if she just magically possessed traits i would later find attractive, or if she single handedly defined a large part of what is now my "type" of woman. All i know is that a large portion of the women I've been attracted to since have shared many of physical features or personality traits.

So there's the story. And i got so caught up in the telling that i nearly forgot the song. But i hope you enjoyed reading about one of the pivotal moments in my life. That's when i really started turning from a child into a young adult. Oh right, the song.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Day 06: A song that reminds of you of somewhere

Back in the day, me and a couple mates used to go to this underage dance party near the city. Was called Lav, and it was pretty awesome. Tomorrow's song is definitely related, but I'll share that when its time comes. For now, i can't listen to this song without remembering. Dunno why this song triggers it so much, but it does.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Day 05: A song that reminds you of someone

So this one needs a bit of the back story. The last night i was in Germany, way back at the beginning of 2007, i stayed at Jana's house. We were in that slightly awkward we're practically dating, but shit's about to go down, so we're not really dating yet,  and we were just lying on her bed, listening to music. This song came on. I'm pretty sure i cried at the time. It so perfectly captured the moment. It went on to become 'our song' which means I haven't listened to it in a very long time, for obvious reasons. But it still reminds me of all the good that came out of that relationship. And now i can enjoy that feeling, guilt free.

Day 04: A song that makes you sad

Once again, a little late. Had a fuckin sick night in the city. Had a really fucking hot chick hitting on me, but then her and her friends left the club. So i just spent the rest of the time dancing and fuckin about. A good time was had by all i think. Anyway...

This song makes me wanna cry. It's so beautiful and so sad. I love it.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Day 03: A song that makes you happy

I'm a little bit late on this one. Just had a really awesome day hanging out with a couple of really good mates. So fucking good that it ended up going for almost 12 hours.
Anyway, today's song is Nine in the Afternoon, by Panic at the disco. This song is so ridiculously cheerful. You can't not smile when you hear it. As a side not, i actually started talking to one of  the girls in the frizbee club that I'd never spoken to, and she's a massive panic fan

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Day 02: Your least favourite song

Not really sure what to put here. It's easy to cop out and put a song everyone hates. But i think I'll do something different. I'm trying to think of a song i hate, but that's sung by a band i like. None come to mind, but I'm sure they exist. So I'll do a minor cop out, and put a song people love, but that i strongly dislike.

This song just pisses me off. Partly just because i hate Pitbull, but also because i hate Pitbull. And everyone fucking loved it at the time.

Fuck off 'Mr Worldwide'

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Day 01: Your favourite song

I've decided to do the 30 day song challenge on here, just because it gives me some space to discuss why i chose each song. This has to be my favourite song ever, from my favourite band ever. I don't think there'll ever be a time where i don't love this song.

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Like pouring salt into my eyes...

Sometimes i hate being me. I care too much, and too easily. My overwhelming sense of honour and justice holds me back from saying things that i need to say, because they're not just my secrets, but someone elses. And it hurts to know that no matter how much i want to, I could never live with myself for saying them. My relationship's fallen apart. As in, past tense. I've been set on artificially lengthening it, in the hopeless delusion that I could be happy for a week. But i know that's not going to work. I fucking exploded today, over a small misunderstanding. Because every fibre of my being is in horrendous pain. I'm putting myself through the most horrible of tortures. I haven't been happy for a month now. Sadly, over the years, I've become exceptionally good at pretending I'm ok. I don't think anyone realised that i was suffering depression until about year 12. So only a few people noticed that I'm not enjoying life anymore.

It's time to stop putting myself through this. I'm sure you all know what happened to me a month ago. Or, some of it. I got dumped, out of nowhere. It could not have come at a worse time. I can't tell you why it happened, it's not my secret to share. But i can tell you why it shouldn't have. On the 27th of July, 2011, William Pandelles Georgans, one of the greatest men to ever walk this earth and the greatest grandfather I could ever have hoped for, passed away in his bed at the SAN hospital, after a 3 month fight with bowel cancer. 3 days later, my girlfriend of the last 18 months told me that we couldn't be together any more. 2 days later, we agreed that it was a mistake and should be undone. For about 4 hours, i was actually happy. And then she told me why it had happened. Part of me screams "FUCK IT TELL THEM!" And the rest of me goes, it would make things worse for everyone involved. I've only told 3 people, my mum, my conscience, and my best friend. Don't ask, i won't explain. But in the end, i accepted it, and took her back. I didn't have a choice, i needed her way too much. Because the next day was the funeral.

What followed was a period of intense self discovery for both of us. Moreso for her at first, but also for me. I was trying to make her into someone she didn't want to be, and she was giving back a mere fraction of what she was receiving. So we're calling it quits. Tomorrow will be the last hurrah, and then it will be over. And when it is, and everyone goes to type "OMFG ARE YOU OK?" like they actually care, I'll link this to you all. And those that actually care will know, that I'll be fine. Eventually. Everyone else can fuck off.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Games I'm lookin forward to...

Deus Ex: Human revolution
What: Set in the future, human augmentation is rampant, cool shit happens. That's all i really know about the plot lol.
Why: Looks like a fantastic mix of RPG and FPS elements. Also, promises great things in terms of diverse playstyles. Assaulting, Stealth, Hacking etc. all seem like genuinely possible ways to play the game. Unlike say, Oblivion, where stealth was pretty much useless for 75% of the game.

Batman: Arkham City
What: Gotham City has been taken over by villians (Pretty sure it's the Riddler, and that dude is fuckin bad ass), as the goddamn batman hop over there and kick some ass.
Why: The first game is fantastic. Like, you actually feel like you're the Goddam Batman! Nothing feels better than taking down a room full of bad guys without anyone seeing you. I haven't finished it yet, but setting up traps is just so much fun. The sequel should be fantastic.

The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim
What: Everyone should already know about this.
Why: Dragons. Fucking DRAGONS! FUCK! And  Oblivion was fantastic, if limited, and Bethesda learns from their mistakes. So skyrim is going to be amazing. (As a side note, they invented a fucking language for the dragons! Like, creatures in the wilderness will talk dragon to you, and it can actually be translated!)

What: You're a Ninja with magic powers, who was framed for the murder of the empress you were sworn to protect. A rat plague has brought society to the brink of collapse, and killed something like 80% of the population.
Why: This game threatens to explode my head with its sheer awesomeness. The variation in playstyles is amazing. Every single scenario can be approached in any way you want. You can do every single level without killing a single enemy, even your 'target' can be left alive if you think he deserves it. If you run in and butcher guards, you might miss a conversation between them that reveals some secret you can use to make things easier later. Look at the game informer website on dishonoured. Its fantastic.

Assassins Creed: Revelations
What: Climb buildings, fuck people up. Also, explore an awesome alternate history.
Why: The series has me hooked. The first game was almost unplayable at times, but the story had me playing for hours at a time. Each installment has definably better gameplay. And the story of AC:2 blew my mind. I'm buying this game on day of release. That's how much i want it.